So much awareness.
An overwhelming supply of thoughts.
Cynicism is easy. Save bees instead.
I want to save bees.
Self-discovery is helpful when you have help from others.
I think its contradictory.
But not really.
"I" is a beautiful thing but "we" is necessary, and proper, and love.
Love above all things.
Humanity is difficult.
I’m actually disgusted with myself as a human being.
For the first time ever, I despise my actions.
Time, and thought and energy.
And not being lazy.
And thought and time and effort.
It’s a thing.
And then there’s laziness and that’s a thing.
And “doing onto others what you want”
Is a thing.
And it seems so simple.
But its not.
BUT IT IS.
It’s just hard because you have to KNOW what you WANT.
And you SHOULD want good things.
For yourself and others and other and yourself.
And being aware of others and their emotions.
Or just TRYING to be aware.
Being open to awareness.
Lord, I need help trying.
And the world sucks.
Because everything is chaotic.
But it doesn’t help being cynical.
And I should have known better.
And I did?
And I ignored it?
I chose ignorance?
Because it was easy.
But people want sunshine
No one wants to live in eternal rain.
I love rain.
But not everyday.
Not even for a few hours.
Just short bursts followed by sunshine.
For everyone, because everyone deserves it.
And NEEDS IT.
But not everyone gets it.
So we should at least do our best and be aware.
And pity the unaware.
And APPRECIATE our life.
And do OUR BEST because that’s sometimes what you need to do.
Because one person can’t do EVERYTHING
What if our contribution is simply taking ADVANTAGE of the opportunity and possibility and just DOING what we WANT to do without FEAR or ANGST or HESITATION so that we can at least sleep knowing we took squeezed every ounce of luck that we were granted when we were born or moved to this place where DREAMS CAN HAPPEN.
I’m so frustrated.
For being so ignorant.
Trying to do otherwise.
If alcohol labels told the truth.